"Shatter open my skull pour in it the wine of madness, o'my God this is my humble request.The wine you termed as sharaban tahoora,which will intoxicate me with love and blind me of fear and free me of all my worries , keeping my rational vision intact,strengthening it and making it more clear instead."
The most wonderful feeling I have ever felt in my life is love.But to term love as a single emotion is no justice.It not only comprises of want but also of excitement to meet ,to talk or just to be in the company of your beloved.It consists of fear of losing them.It consists of readiness to sacrifice for that person . Feeling of hollowness in its absence.
Love is what we all humans search for,somebody to whom we can show our wounds,share our pleasant and unpleasant experiences and hope for consolation.
But what is that when we are unable to stand for the cause or person we love because of our fears or distracting desires or difficult conditions.Does that mean that we don't love that person or that despite being the most wonderful experience love is not the most potent force.
I don't think its like any of them,its like a war in which sometimes love and sometime its anti forces dominate.Fear is one of the worst enemies of love.But wars are not won with a single strike of sword.If the love is true,it will keep fueling the passion to fight.Many a times that person will lose.Then again he will lose.But only the one who will endure with patience all these frustrations of losing will succeed.Here the will power comes into play.Not to lose hope and keep striving.
Those who wander in the search of perfection in their loyalty to their Lord ; who ,if somehow stagger or stumble over some aspects of life,stick to the enigma of "how could we have been so fickle,so disloyal??"
ReplyDeleteSuch perfection-seekers are unconsciously considering themselves a god : infallible and impeccable,for a perfect steadfastness is a character of our Creator only.Humans steadfastness WILL wax and wane,it is apt to crumble before temptation.The critical point is when a human stands guilty and humiliated before his conscience;some decide they are too filthy to ask for mercy,others turn to Him with all their grime and slime and let His mercy decide the rest.
That is how truth liberates us ; liberation from the self-created prison of want for idealistic perfection ; a perfection that doesn't even exists...atleast not in arena where human will and action unfold themselves.
The nostalgia for perfection will encumber us from being even "good".Resignation before inherent limitations will save us from myriads of energy-sucking guilt and self-defeating attempts for a non-existent acme.
Instinctive temptations & Idealized perfection ; Both tools of Iblees , the former for the weak and later for the strong ; both in-crippling and sloth-inducing. May Allah save us from tangles of such idealized perfection.