Faiz

The sky was cloudy,cool wind was blowing,we walked nearly half of Mall road to reach lawrence garden's open theater.Faiz Aman maila was going on.Faiz is one of poets whose words have touched my heart.Expecting to learn something deep from a nonconformist poet, what I actually  heard was too much noise and superficial things...but one of the host narrated  her encounter with faiz in these words:

I went to faiz with my mother ,he was sitting on a chair and smoking drowned in thoughts,as if he wasn't present there,I asked him whats the matter and faiz replied :baaz dafa mein apnay ap ko manzar say ghaib kr laita hn.

I liked this angle of faiz's life very much because sometimes I wish that i become invisible and just  observe the people and world without having to say anything,without having to react to an opinion,just pure observation and getting submerged in the moment.

I have a passion for psychology ,to know what people think and how they feel.Its refreshes me.I did not want to get involved with philosophy because having a certain opinion u always have to defend it, not just in front of people but also in front of ur highly critical, guilty charged and furious conscious.Thinking about philosophical questions has pained my heart a lot .I feel exhausted and want to run away from it but I have recently found that  philosophy is an integral part of me,I cant live with it and I cannot run  from it.